Sorry to read of your predicament...I empathise with you as it happened to me...a long time ago....But everything that happens... has a reason why....maybe you were clearing the decks for a wonderful person to come in to your life ?? that also does happen....I should know..it happened to me...and I'm nothing special....I'm sure that the right person is just waiting for the right moment.. to come along....and then you can smile about all this unhappiness that you are feeling right now....mei wenti my friend...it'll be alright in the end..mark my words.....