It's been a long while since i posted a month way back, I've been asking for some kind of tips, ideas or share some of your expertise on how to cope up the loneliness..yah this is a quite different issue to me as its not about application sort of thing, i've been there done that already, done enough more than what it is to be like...and its well paid off although its a bit contrary as what i expect to be like as such. Well...not to the extent that I regret it for acquiring my goal up to the last end.(yea this is what i want to be with my husband and start building a new set of family of our own.) I got it in fact!
Allow me to give a lil description on how things started up till then up to the last minute. | still have all the memories stored up in mind, lets start with the day that I am almost getting so crazy filling up my application which all i wanted is to be in the right track, gathering all the irequired documents and feed up with much information and with all the helps from the people here I got it all so easy with no hassles anyway. I can relate with those people that been started at just now and give all out their best. yeah fortunately enough I got the visa issued month way back October 21, 2008 with no interview at most. Maybe some people will say I am quite lucky indeed, oh yea maybe I am for some reason that I am having my first baby to be born on mid-january.I just didn't give more importance on how things went so well instead of complaining the other way around. Everything is quite in order in God's own perfect time. I know I coudn't ask for more and never i could ask him to change all this things back after all. I do really love my new life with me now,nothing to argue about, just that I feel a bit missing part of my life.
Later after months passed for total of 10th weeks and 3 days got the visa delivered by post, at that moment of time I am not surely know what exactly the feelings are or do i need to be happy at last, yeah a feast day happen with smiles painted on, but you people don't know the feelings I feel deep within my heart, inspite of the laughters I've shared to anyone whom I tried to interact with especially with my family that truly became the best part of ME. They are so darely to me.
Nov.01, husband came all way from uk to phili just to fetch me so it would be so easy for me to travel thousand miles away to the fact as well that I am struggling hard if he would let me allow to travel alone by myself as I am 28 weeks pregnant by then, opsssssss.....would be so real hard really to anyone whose same preggie as me, yea day comes as we're here at home with my family spending the last minute of my day with them before facing the next chapter of my life as i have no idea what it would be gonna be like. We just rented an accommodation stayed for 2 nights before saying goodbye to all. We did things that I/We truly enjoyed most, spending quality time with them is what it all matters with me anyway, staring at there eyes I could see the pain in them which I knew they only tried to be act as normal as what it should be. Yeah Nov.03 comes....its a real big day for me, my last day ever with them in real, so much in pain, feel like in vain, I want to hold them close to me and to assure things that whatever things happen I am just right here then for them to feel my presence though not in real but emotionally and spiritually they are all in guiding safe deeply inside my heart. I truly gonna miss my parents, although sometimes me and mom argued so many times for some mainly reason but totally not a big deal just a quite normal thing between mom-daughter relationship, yeah miss my dad as well, I could say that he is not the perfect one dad for us, I am not close to him yeah which no one can blame as ive not seen him during my infant/childhood years..well those memories fade up as we already made it up all and done such a great time together, I do miss my sisters, my only two sisters, much more the youngest one age 15 as of now and so as with my only one brother age 22, I accept we're having a lot of fight , a lot of disagreement but it turns up so real well after then which i truly believe the saying goes that blood is thicker than water ...I didnt mean that i won't gonna miss my other one sister but not long to go now as shes also coming over here in next couple of months, going to get married a man from England so then at last I have her here with me same place that would help me to ease the pain. I miss my grandma, shes mean a lot to me, I grown up and stayed almost all my life with her, shes my companion back home, I look after with her most of my times when i was still in pinas, feed her up with some foods and always have her daily medication at hand which she has an asthma for quite longer now but with the help of my husband I couldn't do much of her (u know all what i mean). I do miss the three little kiddies back home ( cousins) as we don't have kiddies in our family yet so mostly we able to cuddled them and threat them as our own....wowowo..miss you all lil sweetie....
The last but not the least........miss my friends and neighbors as well... the environment that I grown up with for 28 years....terribly I badly miss those kind of life...even those negative things happen it made me realize that whatever it may be they are all became part of my single life behind....I truly conclude that NO PLACE LIKE HOME.
Faith makes all things possible.
makes them easy.
you will never realized how time fast so quickly
You will eventually get used to everything. You are lucky you are now with your loving husband
that would be very hard for me as well 
