Thank you all for your comments. I wanted to know your opinions of what I was going through. I really needed them in this painful stage.
I know I am to blame as well. I have no intention of controlling him at all unfortunately, that's probably what he thinks. All I'm asking is some understanding and consideration of my feelings.
Funny, I am going through this with a guy I've only been physically together with for 10 days and the rest of the time we spent together were online. I didn't know LDR hurts this bad. I have never loved anyone as much as I have loved him but no one has ever hurt me and make me cry this much.
Tomorrow, a present I sent him for VD (which was lost in the delivery 2 weeks ago) is going to be redelivered. I was so excited to see that look on his face again as he opens presents. We always open presents together. Now I will not see that look this time and maybe forever. I hope he will like it still though...
