Rutch,your too young to be stressed and depressed,leave that side of things to your fiancee Also be careful about so called "Fixers" in Pinas who will promise to fly you to the stars and the moon(without a visa)just so long as they can get their hands on your cash I was walking into a cebu pacific office in the Domestic airport in Manila last year,a guy asked me the usual "Where are you going friend" I answered "Davao" he told me there were no tickets left that day for Davao(He could see my luggage and guessed I wanted a flight soon'ish)but his friend inside the office would be able to "Help" me,I just laughed and went inside,the plane down to Davao a few hours later had several empty seats Theres an old saying,a fool and his money are easily parted,hang on to your cash and go through the proper channels for your visa,,most people have said your not going to get entry because of your age,accept that and use the time wisely As with most things in life it just takes time and patience