i really dont know how to explain the whole story of mine so somehow you understand why i feel so hard to adjust from my past like to my present life.. because after all at the end im the one who can really solve this. but joining here and try to tell some part of my feelings would help me to ease and to help to see the right decision.
yes you are all right... but you know what before telling me to find a job ..well for the record ive trying to find a job which no doors oopen for me... i got many experience here.. when i came first here in uk after 1month i already trying to get a job here andnow im 6months here still looking for a job.
you know guys, im so active when i was single. i used to go in gym, friends, but i really dont have luck in work..im not a choosy but is just that so hard to get job. im more often walking on the street and even in center with my cv but till now..
before my life, even were not rich i used to be a spoiled of my own luck. and i miss that treat........ i miss my sister where i can just be my self..
but thank you all of this advice and trust me i will really do this advice.... and starting tonight, i will try to be ok..
oh but for the record... when my husband coming i always prepare my self wearing sexy, asking him how is he, i already cooked and clean which i know my duty, but sometimes id just dont like hes reaction for yeah maybe i find it boring...
coz me as a joker of my group friendship as my friends say to me that im so energetic, beauty, nice person, helpfull in family, sweet.. all of that i feel somehow now will totally lost...
but i dont wanna loose hope, thts why i write here. my husband is not that bad yeah i already say that, hes a responsible, but being a i believe that there is a BIG difference meaning in a word of CONTENMENT AND HAPPY. and im not in trying to be content and happy in deep inside of me...
for the record too, im not always sad i still appreciate things he do but you know im mostly feel that un appreciated... but ok this wil take so long sorry for this... but thank you again your advice is helping me and to look forward to my good husband.
