From a quick read it sounds like to me you need a purpose to your life, either volunteer work or ( i know its not easy at the moment) to get a Job of some sort.
Even if you earn pocket money you will have your own money to send home or do as you please although dont forget to offer something to the household even if its just a gesture.
Your husband sounds like myself, I work hard dont go crazy and life can be a tad boring. Like you and even my Wife before we married I was happy to go out and about but now we are married. Life has changed, I can remeber when i started secondary school i was anoyed life had changed then the same for college and uni. Once I started work it changed again and then the last massive change was getting married and realise my life is not just my own that another indivudal life is intertwined with mine.
I could not dissapear for the day or waste all my spare money on records or go out friday and find my way home sunday night.
Basically you need to slowly grow used to that way of life or jack it all in if you dont want that and live the life you wish.
Any way take it easy and enjoy the forum :-)
