Hi Maria sorry to read about your troubles and what you've been going through. I just want to echo what others are saying. Take a long vacation back home, reconnect with family and friends there, and see how you feel in the new year. You definitely deserve a break by the sounds of things and I'm sure your husband will come visit when he can. Lifes full of ups and downs, sometimes we just need a change and a rest to recharge the old batteries
