Hi Maria! I understand your feeling! I don't know what exactly bothers you but if you look around, you're still lucky. All you need to do is to accept that there's no perfect in this world and accept some failures in our life.
I wished to have one child before but never I feel depressed to have one. Me and hubby also tried but my life was at risk and need to choose one. Baby or my health. Hubby also keeps on telling me, having one baby, you can still do things, having two will makes us struggle as it will be hard to travel and do other things. And having 3 is a f.
Try to enjoy your life by travelling everytime your son has space and time. I understand that 17 years living here is too long. I am only 3 years here and looking forward for hubby's retirement.I am also wishing to settle there soon. But be patient Maria, your lucky you have son, and he is soon can manage to his own. Children will grow and will have their own family and leave their parents. And then it is your time to settle in Pinas soon.
Everything will be OK Maria, Trust me!
