Honestly you sounds sensible and trying to be honest.
Being yourself and telling true.
I feel how desperate you are to land a job to be independent financially like what you used to be.
How old are you? Silly question but you might not ready to marry or if you're ready, this is not the life of what you have expected.
It is too hard to adjust really and boredom is our greatest enemy.
But always think sometimes, we have many trials before we reach our goal.
We also need to think that we are the one who can help first to satisfy ourself. Be satisfied of what you have and if you still aiming for more, let there be patience perseverance. You can still find a job as you have no baby yet. You don't need to be picky. You can study, volunteer, walk alone, find friends near you.
I truly understand your independence in pinas as I used to be before and hard to ask money to anybody except from my Nanay. Thats why if hubby gives me money, I really appreciate it and he feels my happiness. But happiness from our hard earned is the sweetest. I got you there.
Please don't give up! Cheer up and smile.
Try to volunteer with pay. Try this and I will pray for your application.
http://worldofdifference.vodafone.co.uk/
Goodluck and be happy. Be honest to your hubby and share your feeling and moans.
