i understand how you feel.. coz there are times that i feel the same way too in regards of not having your own money. just keep trying looking for a job. as for me i can't find a job coz i have 2 kids to look after. by the time that my youngest is attending school then i might be lucky to work again and have my own money. my husband is not rich but he does everything he can to give me and my kids the material things we need which that's just an extra pogi points of him. he's not a perfect husband but the effort he does for us to be happy is better than being perfect.
but in regards to your ex... forget about that there's a reason why you're not with him now. i'm sure if you were with your ex you will be more confused and sad bec. all he can give you is material things but not the love you can get from your husband.
be thankful of what you have.. there are thousands or millions of women that will exchange their life with you. what i'm saying is there are alot of women out there that are far more unlucky than you and far more have bigger problems than you.. as in BIGGER!
goodluck to your job hunting!
