In a lot of ways Maria I really feel for you, personally I would go for the close family culture in the Phils not the isolated existence here in the UK. I know you have been here a long long time and I know it is very hard for you.
For me home is the Phils and I was born in Scotland, I cant get back this Christmas, too late to book, too expensive now and also my partner is not there just now anyway, she is back in Korea, but I still miss my kids and wish I could get back for them and the rest of the family.
Sadly a lot of us are miserable gits

a lot of British men are very lacking in personality, something I am guilty of for my partner right now :( we have a lot of problems right now :(
My partner wants to be here in the UK but we have many technical problems on her side regarding that. My big worry has always been that I know how strong her family ties are and I know how much it will hurt her if she comes here for a long time but from a realistic viewpoint I want her here, such hard choices :( and even worse because much of it is outside our control.
I think you need a good long holiday Maria, get back home and reconnect with your family!
Jim