It is difficult - but there are so many on here who are testimony to the fact that it's worth it - you get hopeful - its funny I can be busy busy with my daughter or at work, or trying to fit in domestic crap - and then bam out of nowhere I suddenly wish I wasn't alone - even when I'm surrounded by others - after 5 months I thought it was getting bearable, but the weight of it when it hits you is hard - but the future is bright and next year is only a couple of weeks away..... and 2010 is my year!
