Have a self confidence to hunt a job Ella.
There are huge advantages if you are working!
You'll meet people that will help increase your esteem.
You'll find friends and earn money
to save or to spend.
You'll receive
more benefits in the future if you're working and can afford to pay private insurance at your own expense.
Spending your hard earned money is the sweetest of all! IHMO

I can say hubby is generous as he always there if I have no money to spend, but giving him some £ if he's out of budget is much more a happy feeling and my pleasure.
