This can go on and on. You are what you are, I am what I am. You are happy with your life, I am happy with mine.
I do feel sorrow and pity you aposhark and yes, you will say, 'I dont want or need your pity, this is how I feel, It's never too late, I'm sure a time will come when you will have nothing else but God to turn to.
God bless you and your family
