Hi everyone! Thank you for your replies.
I feel a lot better.
and thanks for this
it was a good read, hope I don't have to go to that extent though
I'm now looking at other jobs, mostly clerical.
And even though I got rejected several times, I gained experience in phone interviews, and now feel more confident with talking to people. I don't stammer as much and my answers are more coherent and organized. So it is a learning experience and will help me get a job.
Thank you for your suggestions too.