I know man, but I have been like that for a long time, saying ****** has become so normal to me, it's like smoking, you can't just tell someone to stop smoking, it takes time...
I know I'm wrong for saying the F work, but ignoring someone you supposedly love for that long isn't right... right?
And respect her... Of course I respect her, I wouldn't tell her I'm sorry or I love her if I didn't respect her... Maybe you grew up where the F word meant something really really bad... I grew up in a school where the F word was said like it was nothing and now I'm realising it aint so good, but trying to change isn't as easy as most people think it is...