1. When you say you made a mistake and blame no one for it, well there's a mistake within itself! Things are very rarely one persons fault.
2. You started living with whats left? This life experience is an all singing all dancing paradise so spectacular I can't fathom how lucky I am to experience it! I'm also convinced that when we (so called die) we are projected into an Astral Plain...Paradise is not achieved it's percieved! It's been a paradise since the day we were born!
3. (This seems typical of all Filipina women) You speak of 'giving all' and 'trying harder' quite a lot! This gives me the impression that you care deeply about what others think of you, particularly your man perhaps? You are NOT defined by what others think of you, your not even defined by what your Mother and Father may think of you. Your a divine woman, you should acknowledge this to yourself and not let others influence what you feel about yourself...hold FIRM beliefs about yourself and don't let others manipulate your mind..it may be that you are getting psychological/emotional abuse..and are not even aware ot it!
So I think your REAL mistakes are thinking that you blame, thinking that life is bad (it's paradise!), and defining yourself by what others think! (You must be silly doing that! )
I've noticed many women make the mistake of letting others influence their mind, many women are rather meek and easily manipulated! Take control of your thoughts and take control of your life! Your life (and mind) belongs to you how could it possibly belong to someone else? Do NOT care for what 'they' think care for what YOU think! Each and every one of us is undebatebly magnificent, your a divine beauty! Your perfection!
***** Being submissive and co-operative and holding great concern for what your man thinks is a very attractive attribute in a woman...but what good is it going to do you? *****
I agree with you on this Nigel. It is true for some of the Filipinas, that's why I don't bother to what others may think because life for me is so precious that I am thankful for each wonderful day because to me its a paradise.