hey everyone. i dont wanna quote anymore because you're all right. you just cant help who you love.
i just came back from bohol with him. everything was so good starting with last saturday when he met my family. we flew to bohol last sunday. he proposed in the middle of the ocean. the day was so good. we started monday all so good then we head out the country side tour. thats when things started bad. everything turned nasty. i tried my best from monday till today to fix it. im so exhausted. he still got 2 days here but i dont think i can still make it work. i have given all i can, stripped of all my pride. he was perfect except the part where he is "balat sibuyas" always sensitive of little things and he makes it big. i did everything alone where he seek help from pinoy friends.
you're all right. i just cant help myself coz i love him so much. my mom told him she thought an older man can tame me. he replied that i'll just play the older guy and be bored after. he maybe right there. i had the time of my life, fulfilled some fantasies.
it's time to surrender. im all f**ked up to be good for anyone. so i'll just be here to monkey around. im useless at the moment. im paralyzed. my work gave me enough time and space till my vacation leave will be over this saturday. i just told them to understand if im not my jolly self.
i welcome all the i-told-you-so's. i need all the friends i can have right now. im still praying for guidance. i know there is a plan for me.
