It’s been one month since I come back from the Philippines and each day is the same as the next. I feel that my life has stopped living at the moment in a strange way, as all I do is wake up, drive, work, drive, Internet and sleep. I have done this every workday since I have come home. Weekends would be different though, I would just stay at home because everything I used to do costs money whether having a quiet drink with the lads, watching the mighty United play (Oxford that is) or playing golf. Instead I will watch the footy results and watch crap TV!

All this in the vague hope that I can save enough money, and apply for the spousal visa for mahal in June.

The best part of the week to is being able to see mahal online in the morning for a few hours on Saturday and Sunday. The ultimate weekend to make it easier being apart is when I am playing with my 2 ½ year old nephew! I am always looking forward to talking to mahal in lunch break at work and just before going to bed each night half an hour at a time. Most days i'm working so hard that I might be lucky it takes my mind off being apart from mahal for a few hours, but when I get home from work and chill out, the loneliness kicks in again. I do find some solace at this forum by reading the posts, makes me chuckle at the funny posts but also understand what is felt by others. I try to contribute to the forum if I can. So cheers everyone for helping me keep my sanity!