when i have my 6 month visa last november, my father used to have that illness just this december.. the stone became bigger and bigger ... and i was in uk with my husband... my sisters send me the ctscans and cystoscopies etc.. and its really getting bigger and bigger... so its like i was having a marathon bringing a very very big cross in my back..

Then this march, he had the operation... with the the chemotheraphy.. 1 chemo sessions per week was areally really huge big amount.. as in very expensive...

Everyday ,and everyday nght while i was in the uk, i cant sleep, maybe i can sleep but only 2 hours or sometimes less.. and every night with that, i keep on asking GOD... why its like this, when everything seems alright, another problem comes... my husband want to ask me are u alright but i dont want him to worry too...he knows whats going too but doesnt want him to be worried...
Then,i i went home this may 2011,pack my bags for heathrow flight, tears in eyes while looking at my husband waiving at me when i enter the boarding area. its like i dont want to go home, so after i was scanned in heathrow, i look outside my husband was not there anymore , he needs to go too for his train schedule.
when i arrive in cebu, i saw my father , hug him so close.. and i said how are u... he said .. he is fine.. i can really see he lose weight but as usual he eats like a dinosaur.. lol...
When we eat together , i saw a big fruit in our table.. i ask what is that greeny thing?. my mom and father said that what the doctor advise to eat to your father so that he can save chemo sessions.. and the doctor said that, thats what most cancer people eat too in america and even the patients in the hospital were eating that oen too.. and because i dont want to argue about it... i did try to search it online.. and guess what, it will really act as natural chemo in the body..

may 17, we went to the doctor , he do some cyctoscopy again and walaaaaaa.... its gone..
my mind became at ease at the moment.. its like the cross that im carrying was gone...

but since it cannot be taken for granted..i still want him to be check every now and then. and hoping that erything will be very fine... coz i love my parents so much.. dont want them to see struggling the pain...

i know miracles do happen to people who believes in him and people who stays on for better or for worst.. ..

Thanks to my loving husband too... i miss our racing and roulette routine .. hahahaha... be back soon..

And by the way , the fruit that i mentioned was a normal fruit here,.. its called GUYABANO... i dont know whats the english term though.. i hope that word will not be included in my english test since i dont know the english term... hahahhaha.....
thats all folks...