believe me pal, you do not want to hang around this girl. If you are saying things are not working out because of your own negativity - then you need to to understand that the negativity is coming from you're own self and is 100% caused by this woman.
33 is young, you seem to be going through some premature mid-life crisis..get the hell out of that situation, if it were me, I'd just scarper. It would probably save her dignity too. Otherwise just say you need to get a job & will be in touch..
aint happnin,,,
