If anyone changes my mind it will be me, but thanks for the post, it's true - each time you have sex with a stranger it takes part of your sould away, even if you are not religious - it's part of the reason i don't want to be single anymore.
And to reply to Phillip, well initially I did feel under pressure from the mother even though she's still in HK, but there was an incident a week or so ago when it transpired I had been paying 4 pesos more than I should have been for my San Mig. She went to the shop and there was a bit of a telling off and they have now asked me to use another shop where I will not get charged a 'white mans levy'.
I have also run out of money (that which was on my HK ATM card) and I made it last but it wasn't a great deal. I have spent no more than 200 punds a month here and that included her birthday present.
I don't know why I find it so hard to trust people, I guess I was nieve as a kid, but I'm not thick - I just want to be loved like we all do, I'm 33 years old and have been drifting for too long. I am easily bored and worry that if anything I will screw up the marraige.
I would have thought of a better username if I'd not been in such a hurry but as it happens it's quite apt.
