Hi everyone !! ,i hope you are all well,and i am so pleased to be here.
I hope you dont mind that my intoduction may take a little time to read,but i would appreciate any help or advice you can kindly offer .
I never could have imagined a year ago that i would be here seeking advice and help.Life is so precious,and so unpredictable .Please can i just give you a little background to the circumstances which have led me to your beautiful forum-salamat.
Just over 3 years ago i was very happily married man,a proud husband and father of 6 children,4 sons and 2 daughters,i loved my wife and kids so very much,there were my entire life and treasures.Sadly my mum had been very ill with bowel cancer,and after a long and brave fight,sadly died in March 2004.3 weeks later,my daughter Jacqueline,25,died just 1 week after giving birth to her beautiful baby Lucy Anne,i was totally devastated and heartbroken,and the day after her funeral ,i suffered a massive heart attack,and it was touch n go for 3 days if i would pull through.I had 4 stents inserted in major arterys and now i am on disability benefits indefinately unable to work becuse of various health complications though i am not immobile i must stress.Throughout my period of grieving and recovery,my ex wife sought comfort by joining her local gym.It wasent long before it became 5 nights a week she was visiting,and slowly after several months i knew i was losing her,her love and affection had gone,and in august last year she said she no longer loved me and wanted a seperation, and after 24 years i had to leave my home and kids,everything,i was totally numb with sadness,i felt my lifewas over.I spent several months in homeless accomodation,and my daughter Maria,12 began living with me last November.Sorry about all that ,now heres where life gets better We now have a home once again and i am finding much happiness
and i see my kids several times and week,and i must mention my 2 dogs too !!!,they are my faithful friends .
I recently met a kasintahan online,we talk everday on messenger,and sms,for long periods ,both my morning time and night time.She is without doubt a gift from God,and she echoes the same feeling for me.She has 4 children ,tsikiting,and i have spoken to them ,and they call me erpat ,i love them dearly as their prinsesa nanay.She has genuine beautiful love and concern for me,often texing me via messengerto see if i am ok,because she worries so much.There are so many truly beautiful caring ways she shows her love and kindness and affection its hard for me to explain in words how deeply i have grown to love her in such a short time,and she feels the same for me.My feelings of love for her grow stronger eachday.She struggles so much,but everyday she works for her kids and finds time to call me and care for me.I feel as though God has sent an angel to guide her to me,and she said God guided me to her,because she has had many heartaches,but she tells me i make her so happy and loved,i am so touched by her words,and when we talk on webcam we aresohappy,as though we have known and loved each other for so long.
There is so much advice i need ,and many questions and fears too!!!,so thanks for inviting meto join your beautiful forum,salamat and i look forward to meeting you all,
best wishes to you all ,
jeffro n Maria.Godbless .