Hi sweetnote!I honestly appreciate your frankness,it will somehow hurt me but it won't offend me because it's the reality. I just can't accept the fact that he made me believe of something that wasn't true from the very beginning! From the beginning I was so transparent to him and asked him a lot of times to be honest to me no matter how it hurts but he carried it on, made me feel that he loved me.I never asked anything from him but he was the one who mentioned all those future plans together so in return I gave all my focus to him,I gave all my love,my soul,my life to him.When he told me he cannot help me anymore coz he has boys to take care of, I said it's just ok I will take care of myself and my boys,it won't change my commitment to him. But I don't understand how so easy for him to dump me.If I did something wrong then I'll understand but I didn't. I am so careful in every move I make even we are far from each other coz I want him to be proud of me.One thing hurts me most is he gave my 2 boys false hope as well.That we can be 1 happy family.He gave so much happiness and inspiration to my boys. My boys was so proud to tell their teachers and classmate that they have a daddy already and if u can see all their notebooks are full of drawings of a happy family and labelled it him as the daddy. My boys 9 and 7 yrs old have been so inspired and getting good grades, I believed because they feel so much difference this time. They see me happy chatting with him talking about future together. He even told me we could be a good couple coz we get a long, we talked a lot like bestfriends then all of a sudden he dumped me. I just can't understand why?and he told me it's just simple the feeling faded away...simply faded away?so unfair.I know I should love myself more and let go of him,wish it would be easy sweetnote but this time I felt my life is so miserable. I don't know how to tell my family, my dad who trusted him and expected so much from him that he will take care of us. Thanks a lot to all of u for all the advices, I hope I'll get over him soon. The pain is killing me slowly, I can't believe and accept that he broke the dream he made us believe to happen.
