Firstly, there is no need to apologise ... I've just been perusing both of your threads, and - if I may say so - your command of English is beyond reproach. Indeed, your spelling is excellent ... and I mean that sincerely!
It seems to me, that what you need most right now, is self-confidence ... a characteristic that can be cultivated to grow and develop naturally over time. We're here to help and guide you towards achieving this goal - as you've seen from the very sensible responses already posted.
... secondly, I have taken the decision to merge and relocate your two threads under 'Courting & Relationships' so that the replies you receive are kept in one place for easy reference.
Meanwhile ... a warm to our friendly, online filipino community.