Perhaps the reason why God take someone away from us is because He has someone better to give. Maybe He wants to give me space to grow, to teach me to be stronger, and to seek for happiness within me and not with somebody else.

“Oftentimes you give others the opportunity to create your happiness, and many times they fail to create it the way you want it. Why? Because only one person can be in charge of your joy, of your bliss, and that’s you.” -The Secret, Rhonda Byrne

I am used to having the attention of many people close to me. I am used with chatting and laughing everyday with different group of friends and staying in touch, every minute and every day, with that special person in my life. That simple gesture of communication constitutes my happiness. That way I feel I am someone important, someone loved and cared for. Without it, I feel so alone, and I’ve always believed that I need someone to be happy.
But it was a wake up call for me when I’ve read that phrase in the book The Secret. I realized everything I’ve assumed concerning my happiness was wrong, and I have to do something to make it right.

Getting hurt is inevitable, even ‘Christmas day’ and Birthday was not an exemption. I was just not ready yet when he asked me that night to let him go. It’s painful, brutally painful. For months he’s been the definition of my happiness. And at the same time he has been my weakness and the reason for my sleepless nights.

I cannot move on, I told myself. I’ve been there some times but still, I don’t have enough strength to move on. That moment I thought saying goodbye to him means saying goodbye to my happiness, but I never realized that he just gave me the chance to look for what happiness really means.

Thank you so much for the love you showered me before, you are a good soul and kind heart. I’m sorry for all my mistakes. I hope you alread forgave me as I already forgiven you as well. I am now prepared to give up and let go, but I will never stop to communicate with you, not at all. You will always be a part of me. I will always be your friend.

I just realized I should take time off to give to myself. And as I am on my way to discovering my own bliss, from time to time, I will let myself stop for a minute
God is good all the time because at the time I almost give up beliving in love, but He is just preparing me for his wonderful surprise at the right time.

Thanks everyone for all the support and new friends I made in here esp during the most devastating days of my life, I am indeed truly grateful for the outpouring advice. Now, I will face a new chapter of my life soon, I wish everyone love and happiness.