Introducing again

[shinx]

we were engaged in January, and recently discussing my return and we had agreed the wedding date as Feb 18. An 'positive' day as they call it there. her sister has mental problems from a road accident and i always told her i accept her too as a responsibility. she was due to travel to Cebu this last week school vacation time to get fabric for the wedding gown. this morning i visited the gp and started taking Diazepam for anxiety relief to help me through the day and stop waking in the night to check messages that are not there. when you are used to messages when you wake always there for you and look forward to chats later in the day its so hard now.

[sars_notd_virus]

i am trying but right now she will not talk, i have sent flowers for tomorrow, written all the right words. up to her, but i am allowing her all time she wants, still giving love and care

the problem was regarding an unfaithfulness that was such a shock.

she will not reply for one week and she knows today is my birthday. I found out myself accidentally through a secret facebook page she has she gave birth end of September (when I know ostensibly visiting relatives out of cell area) and for 2 weeks after chatting me as if nothing happened. found also a cheek to cheek picture with the father at an event I remember I payed for her to go to and a new dress. That was so awful to see. I have written forgiving her if only she will talk. sorry to post this yes I am devastated. the facebook page was deleted after I sent a friend request and her bf blocked me from his. I was supporting her and her family all this time with never any reason to doubt and daily contact kept me confident with that. dont want to believe I have been used but her silence is deafening.

we were engaged in January, and recently discussing my return and we had agreed the wedding date as Feb 18. An 'positive' day as they call it there. her sister has mental problems from a road accident and i always told her i accept her too as a responsibility. she was due to travel to Cebu this last week school vacation time to get fabric for the wedding gown. this morning i visited the gp and started taking Diazepam for anxiety relief to help me through the day and stop waking in the night to check messages that are not there. when you are used to messages when you wake always there for you and look forward to chats later in the day its so hard now.

I know its hard but worry about yourself shinx looks like your gf scammed you ...cut your losses mate and try to move on a little bit!!
and
Happy Birthday from all of us here!!

[shinx]

I had no reason to think of her as a scammer ever we knew each other for 2 and a half years now from first chat but yes it has ended up that way, so hard to accept and get her out of my mind. In many conversations she shared important and some personal things. conversations each day were detailed and every day we talked, anything and everything and continued to both ask for reassurance. I could call her anytime and did. I am not a stupid guy at all but seems I have been now. I still see her as a good person even with this, she often made wise comments ahead of her age. I respect Filipino of course and will continue too but still you must check and recheck in a long distance relationship if your even a smallest doubt raise it, and I did, but should have been more thorough. I wish could talk to her but I cant of what did happen and why. She missed personal and that guy could give her that and probably she found herself in a tough situation between him and someone supportive. Just wishes she would have been honest and she would have known I will understand but perhaps also she didnt want to face the shame, who knows but I should put all these questions away now. I am feeling if I meet a filipina here its better so you can get the face to face situation so you can be more sure.