we all differ in what we think, my ex always put her friends before anyone, and in the end she told me that herself, even though i knew, dont get me wrong i love all my kids, the 2 kids from my ex who i adopted lived with me after the split and 1 just left last year and the other is still here, deep down i know that one day i will mean nothing to them my own well i am their dad but once gone just a memory, a good one i hope, my future is with Emma who knows what is round the corner but at this moment number 1 is Emma