my husband became busy,,
too busy,,
he just insert me in his busy time and make me feel guilty that anytime soon he might just get fired because of talking to me...
all i wanted is some time from him, but he seems busy with lots of things...
our arguments became nasty,,,
i dont know where he go, who is he with in his day off,,,i demanded sometimes from his day off but he said hes too busy,,,
he is with his family, with his friends but with me he is always on the run...
dont get me wrong,,i appreciate his effort but i miss him so bad that i want a unique time from him,when he is not on the run...
he cant call me coz its too expensive...he is saving money on his account so his account will look good for my visa, but he never sent me additional supporting papers...he do thing that ill only find out if i will not call and ask him what he is doing...
he said he will spend more time with me when im already there...
i dont know...
i feel alone right now,,,and with the nasty arguments we had,,i think it will be the end of our marriage...
i love my husband so much but i want to be treated as a wife...not a burden..
im his new family how come i feel im not...
i feel that something is wrong but he said that hes not cheating on me,,,one of the woman i met here advice me to trust him, but just a few hours ago he slip his word by saying he already told me what he is doing,when we havent talk, then we got nasty argument...
im scared,,and im tired,,i feel hurt in every argument we have..
i feel like i have no right to feel hurt...

i hate this feeling...


worse thing is i have no one to talk to nor to cry to...my sister says anytime soon shell put me in the mental institution coz i never stop crying alone inside the room...

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