"I AM WAITING FOR AN ARRIVAL, A RETURN, A PROMISED SIGN. THIS CAN BE FUTILE, OR IMMENSELY PATHETIC; in EWARTUNG (WAITING)...
I am waiting for the (you all know what!!!) and my anxiety is so intense. The clock keeps ticking and I seem to lose my senses. I discern delay. I should stop staring at my watch or the calendar. I kept forbidding myself to leave my place, even going to the loo is dreaded...I suffer torments when a motorcylcle wanders around the vicinity. Must be 2GO now....Thoughts of leaving at a certain hour maddens me, even showers should not last for 15mins, I must be very very quick, so as not to run the risk of missing the call from VFS. Somebody said it is delirium and I should stop typing this thread. I could go on forever guys, believe me I have so much to say...Do you think I am mad? This waiting really makes one person mad. So think again before you say a thing, if you cannot say something nice or more mental than what I am saying now, keep your piece and leave me in peace. I am more than willing to declare World War IV now.