... y'know, Ros ... there's an old saying:-"A problem shared is a problem halved! And I've found there is very often a great deal of truth in this simple maxim.
So ... if you feel it's something the *Mods can help you with, then don't hesitate to contact one of *us via a Private Message - which WILL, in turn, be treated with the utmost confidentiality.
That's OK. Here's some 'rep' to cheer you up meanwhile.