Hi Beth while reading your story i can relate since i've been in the same situation as you. I've been to England on a tourist visa. It took me 3 weeks before i went out and explore the beautiful England ( I always have with me a map).I also have my job and earning quite well but left just to be with my love one. I only had some cash with me and because of the conversion it did last only for a short period of time. I am not used to depend on someone when it comes to money matters. I feel shy to tell him what i need but somehow it was not a problem since he always make sure i always have some amount of cash on my wallet even if i don't tell him i need it. I was so glad he can read my mind.
