Hache ................... Gwapito is right, trust your gut instinct. From what you say, you'd be marrying for the wrong reasons which is a receipe for disaster. Sounds like it's time to be brave and move on as continuing your relationship feeling the way you do is unfair to you both............
Thank you Rosie. Yeah I'm not willing to do it for any reason other than believing its the best decision for myself......trouble with me if there's any sign of coercion I always take a step back....