I can probably say that your woman wanted assurance, and was also under pressure of what she's been seeing or probably people kept on asking or already judging your relationship, since you are in long distance relationship, waiting for the right time is very not ideal but I will say that you made the right decision to know yourself what you really want first and not went to the flow of pressure. I hope you're not feeling bad, you just made it for yourself and I will not judge that as selfishness.