I know that I would really get some comments that I wouldn't want to hear, some might judge my fiance but I am just really alone thinking about this thing, I cannot tell this to my family and someone who knows me personally. But I will not be biased and will listen to everything you might say.

I am in a relationship with my British fiance for a year and 1 month, he did lots of sacrifices specifically he rented out his apartment for a year and went back to his mum's house just to save, and be able to meet me, not just once but twice. He sacrificed his social life for me and we're both waiting for us to be together.

Fiancee visa is risky, that's what we are telling to each other before, personally I didn't like it and we did not want to lose that big amount of money so we tried visitor visa and we talked about breaking up if my marriage visa will be refused. Well it was refused, after all the stress and hard times, it was still refused, we were really frustrated, I thought it will be our end.

He decided to take the risk, and he said what he had saved is for us, so he will use all of it and do everything now for this fiancee visa, but since he went back to his apartment he won't be able to save now, no more other income aside from his monthly salary but it won't be enough anymore as he will be paying monthly a lot now.

So this fiancee visa is a do or die match for our relationship, if we fail, we have no choice but to give up as he cannot wait for years/months again. It is quite sad thinking that if it happens, I won't be able to see, touch and be with the man I love more than anyone here in the world. November will be our last meeting then which is very painful.

I hope you understand why I always ask questions about everything in my visa application, that's the only part I can do to save our relationship.