A few years back I joined a site called PinaLove and met an interesting girl, I even flew out to Phils a few times over the years to meet her who I'm still in touch with very often but her situation is extremely poverish and theres so much hassle on both ends to help bring her here, such a genuine girl never asked me for a penny or any favors (but I took good care of her), she showed me the time of my life she was a fantastic host on all occassions and really followed me everywhere I went, translating, showing me the ropes in Phils, introduced me to her family, really a great companion I do think about her often and she's obssessed with me even though I told her I can't keep coming back there to see her we should remain only friends and I can't do long distance relationships it doesn't compute with me I may try to find another girl etc etc but she doesn't understand and is consumed by 'love' or something.
I am really inclined to go back this year but It hurts everytime I leave and it kills her inside I feel selfish going there then having to leave, maybe I will look further into immigration legislation and consider the idea of bringing her here, It's such a confusing matter since she is the only one to show such genuinity towards me even under my paranoid scrutiny she really proved how loyal she is, she is for life, but I just don't know...
I always contradict myself, a true Cancerian.
By the way this is only a brief background of my experience I may share more.