Cheez, looking at porn pictures on the internet is a bit different to visiting girlie bars. I am sorry to hear that you were in a terrible relationship and it sounds like leaving it was probably best for all concerned but you don't appear to have come out of it unscathed. The concerns that have been expressed are for your fiancée, and from what you say, I think that you still have emotional issues that need to be addressed if you want your relationship and marriage to last .......Just the opinion of an outsider
