It can be stressful and it's making me a bit anxious at times. I have lost track of how many CV's I have created and given out - both to agencies and other establishments.

I have a proven track record of 15 years of employment in the hospitality industry in Asia. Worked for 5-star hotels almost non-stop till I resigned in 2012 so that I can prepare, get organised and get married and settle down here in the UK with my hubby.

I finally arrived here in mid-2014 but that meant being unemployed so I could concentrate on processing things and we did not expect that things will take so long anyway. So now, I am having to explain the last two years of being unemployed and, of course, I do not have any work experience here in the UK Tough!

I feel bad for my husband because he is paying for everything. He does not mind really, but I am also not used to not earning or being dependent. All my life I have worked and I'm used to having my own income. I feel bad for myself too! But so far, no one has given me a chance to prove what I can do! They don't know what they are missing, really.

I know what I am missing though. Sad, sad, sad!