Hi guys, I have made a decision to let Maria confess all to my family - as I cannot live with these lies any more.
I believe the fear inside her is them finding out one day that she is not my own child - and I know they have suspicions - but I have learned to become a pretty good liar myself, which kills all my beliefs as a Christian.
I even told them the Passport Office asked for a paternity test before I could apply for her British Passport and they swallowed it hook line and sinker, and it kills me to see how they have become so attached and what the truth would do.
How the hell do I deal with what's going on inside my head?
Guys you have been a godsend thank you Jack...
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Originally Posted by jack86
Stay positive, think clearly, KNOW what you want and go for it. And this time, don't do the 8-week wonder thing! 
. There are lots of lovely, loving Filipino ladies who would jump at half a chance to show YOU Love. And hey, this self esteem thing, don't do yourself down, you have a good job, security, generally you are a sensible guy, and have Christian beliefs. Much like many Filipinos. I tell you what Jack, you post an ad of when you intend to go to the Philippines again, and there will be a Queue of ladies lining up at the Airport wanting to meet you. I say this in all seriousness, because with YOUR background you really are a catch for some lucky lady. So stay positive! 
