After four months--and two visits after our first meeting--I've decided to call it quits with S. As I mentioned above she no longer is working so I've been sending her money here and there, for rent, food, etc. After seeing how she lives, pretty much hand-to-mouth, I believe the money was going for what she said it was--most of the time. Between the trips down there from HK and this, I nearly broke the bank. There is also a new computer, a laptop that I should have waited to buy.
I'd planned to go down there next weekend to give my old desktop to her. I would pick up a used monitor, keyboard, etc. and get her hooked up to the Internet so that we could chat more regularly and more cheaply. She was very excited about this. She might be able to make a little money.
Then, late last week she asked me to wire her a little money for some medicine. She claimed she had a fever. I told her that there wasn't any money to send, that I was having to get an advance on my pay to bring her the computer. She quickly lapsed into melodrama, saying that she might be dead the next time I called. Though I'd been slow to send money in the past, this was the first time I didn't budge.
I called yesterday, Sunday, evening to advise her to look into where to pick up a monitor. She said she was still not feeling well and was rather short with me, ending our conversation first--the first time I can remember. I've been calling every other day from the start so what followed was surprising: before a quick good-bye, she told me not to call until I arrive next Saturday.
I'm going to cancel my ticket, give the computer to a local charity and write nothing until I hear from her. I know that there will be more melodrama, so I'll have to refuse verbal conversation. I am well beyond heartbreak. I am a man of my word, yes, and I'd told her I would come, but enough is enough.
