if you are in doubts...all you can do for now is stop trying and just keep saving all you earned from working then at least when you get back home you can start something back there its not the end of the world prove to him that you can still be successful in life who knows you ended up with someone whos much better than him love need not to be cruel,dont waste youre life
if you do love him let him go or let go of yourself let the love find ways for both of you....good luck and all the best
