Quote Originally Posted by sphinx View Post
been reading this before but never registered myself..i am also looking if i can read something or the same story as mine,here it goes...
i am married, with one child, live here in the UK, we came from Eastern Europe and now being settled here for awhile..
i married my husband 4 years ago, i love him and i know he loves me...as we go on in our marriage, of course there are times we are in a row, sometimes i hear foul words that i feel i dont deserve, i know i am not perfect so i also say something that could hurt his ego, he shouted several times, strangled me twice bec. i dont like to make love with him..inspite of those, i remained to be nice and responsible wife and mother, i forgave him several times, gave him _th chances as after our fight he begged for forgivesness....and many more sad stories to tell...now i am falling out of love, been also to a counsellor but i couldn't open my heart anymore to him, i feel there is a revenge already inside me, grudges, heartaches and frustrations as well...
but whenever i think of leaving him, i feel pity on him..
what am i going to follow? my heart that i don't love him anymore or my conscience leaving him?
i know after reading this everybody wants to crucify me and maybe they wouldn't understand, but i am ready to take all the words being thrown upon me.......
Sphinx'
In your 3rd sentence you said YOU LOVE HIM and later you, said you are falling out of it and you also said you don't love him anymore Seems you are so confused. Why not leave him alone for a weeks, or even months. Have a break! Think and refresh. Discuss this to him. Give yourself a chance to think while you are apart from him. Heartaches and frustrations are part of relationships but we all have our own limitations in life. Think if you are really ready for a divorce which is really easy to get in this country, but if you did it, and feel you still in love, then it's too hard to turn back. Is your child also ready for what decisions you will make if ever?