Just thought i'd let you know that we are over. He ended it with me about 2hrs ago. I'm absolutely beside myself. I know feel that what we had and what he said to me were lies. He says he was trying to be respectful by the right thing and saving me from the agony i'm going through.
He is getting enormous pressure from his family back home for money and his village has suffered quite badly from the recent typoon, no electricity, rice, fresh water etc. So he is having to send every penny he has to them. He spoke with his daughter, aged 11, a few days ago and that made him realise that his family really need him there. So therefore, after his contract is up in sept he will fly back there are try to find work. Maybe i am being really selfish with my thoughts and i understand he has a lot on his plate at the mo, his two closest friends have left the ship and he feels really alone.
I can't help but think he reluctantly finished it with me to save my feelings and like he always said he can't promise me too much.
I would have given him anything and done everything in my power to get him here to the UK, that was his dream and I was always there to help him pursue it.
Am I wrong to have told him to not contact me again? He asked if we could still be friends, he still wants me in his life and he would like to still call, but i said No. We will now cut all ties. I cannot describe how gutted I am. I truly loved him and really believed we had a future together, tho people warned me that I would always be second best. Perhaps he just thought I was too high maintenance or needy?..awh i don't know?
I believe he's maybe going through a crisis, i refuse to believe that the time we shared was nothing. He described us as soul mates, almost like we were destined to meet each other, we spoke about the future and having a family and where we'd live- i have no doubt in my mind he loved me and he says he still does but its because of the circumstances that he can't continue this.
Any thoughts, advice would be very much appreciated. Thanks x
