Awww...Maria..sorry you're feeling down. Just like BAB, I didn't see any hints whilst reading your previous posts. Anyways, I think Tawi is right, a time off can usually help. Just like you, I get really stressed at times - be it due to work, or just living in the UK and not having my first family, etc. I normally go back home when it gets really tough and a couple of times it lasted only a week. But it helped me immensely.
I've experienced living away from my husband for three months before we finally came to the UK. It's not easy, and it's really sad. Although we keep on calling each other almost everyday, it's never the same. My kids are younger than yours, I'm sure it will make no difference but during those three months, I can fully sense that my children are missing their dad so much as well.
Within this year, I am pushing my husband to get a post back in Asia. I was at one point overly depressed, which made him give in to the idea that I stay in Manila with the kids while he's here in the UK waiting for any possible posts back anywhere in Asia which ofcourse is not guaranteed. I can't find it in my heart to leave him here by himself for an unknown length of time. I feel it will be unfair for my kids as well.
From your previous posts, I know you love your husband dearly so any decision you make won't be easy. But there's no need to be hasty on majour decisions, just take your time and even a short break will help you clear your mind.
Hope you feel better soon.
Originally Posted by miss.piggy
