Sometimes love sometimes horrible

[sadly confuse]

i really dont know how to explain the whole story of mine so somehow you understand why i feel so hard to adjust from my past like to my present life.. because after all at the end im the one who can really solve this. but joining here and try to tell some part of my feelings would help me to ease and to help to see the right decision.

yes you are all right... but you know what before telling me to find a job ..well for the record ive trying to find a job which no doors oopen for me... i got many experience here.. when i came first here in uk after 1month i already trying to get a job here andnow im 6months here still looking for a job.

you know guys, im so active when i was single. i used to go in gym, friends, but i really dont have luck in work..im not a choosy but is just that so hard to get job. im more often walking on the street and even in center with my cv but till now..

before my life, even were not rich i used to be a spoiled of my own luck. and i miss that treat........ i miss my sister where i can just be my self..

but thank you all of this advice and trust me i will really do this advice.... and starting tonight, i will try to be ok..

oh but for the record... when my husband coming i always prepare my self wearing sexy, asking him how is he, i already cooked and clean which i know my duty, but sometimes id just dont like hes reaction for yeah maybe i find it boring...

coz me as a joker of my group friendship as my friends say to me that im so energetic, beauty, nice person, helpfull in family, sweet.. all of that i feel somehow now will totally lost...

but i dont wanna loose hope, thts why i write here. my husband is not that bad yeah i already say that, hes a responsible, but being a i believe that there is a BIG difference meaning in a word of CONTENMENT AND HAPPY. and im not in trying to be content and happy in deep inside of me...

for the record too, im not always sad i still appreciate things he do but you know im mostly feel that un appreciated... but ok this wil take so long sorry for this... but thank you again your advice is helping me and to look forward to my good husband.

[Queenbee]

Happiness is a state of mind....
you either choose to be happy and appreciate the good things you have now and be contented OR wallow in self pity and misery.....
Sometimes when we focus too much on the negative and the things we don't have....we overlook the good things and the more important things we have....
We get so busy moaning and focusing on trivial matters when we have a lot to be thankful about....

EXACTLY!

[whiteraven]

what did you think life was really going to be like once you were married? it just sounds to me you werent really ready to make that kind of commitment. maybe im wrong and i dont wish to judge,so just take the good advice thats been given and find some way to change your life so you can grow together as a couple

[Sophie]

Amen sister sophie

[IainBusby]

im a new member here and living now in london with my husband. my husband is not a bad guy. he dont have a bad habits like drinking alcohol, smoking, clubbing,AND sometimes he act like a kid.but hes still the man who stand for hes responsible like house, food, etc., im not alcoholic but i do like drinking sometimes in the pub with friends go disco, shoppings, having fun even in a small way.this is what i am before he met me.(I MIS MY SISTER MY PARTNER IN CRIME) were totally different likes where id just discover when we finally together here in uk. but it doenst mean that hes bad so am i right.

i write this letter for me and for my husband. coz i know we both having a hard time of our relationship well because of my attitude or things that we always argue that mostly its start on me. but you cant blame me, what can i do i have my own idea, opinion, and feelings, sure that i want him to know and that is the start of our discussion. i cant just be quiet and follow him and yes yes yes only, pero napapagod din ako mag complain lalo na wala namang resulta pero di rin naman lahat ha there are also thing that thank god bilang na bilang ngalang.


my husband is not a bad guy but there are so many things we dont agree to each other.i want us to do together things that we both like. but what i like to do mostly he dont like and it really keeps me boring. we sure did lots of things that we had fun but its actuallly all hes idea and when my turn to choose or i intend to choose what i wanna do its just end up for so many reasons mostly. well for the record for now were doing fine. he never shouted me when im upset tayong mga pilipina pa nga ang matapang eh hehe.pero ganon lang naman tayo diba we cant really keep whats inside.well sometimes id just intend to silent.


i find it hard my life here when it comes to financially, emotionally though he buy me things i need but i need to tell him. i mean its like i dont have anymore freedom of money, whatever happened i dont have my own money so i feel so unsecured too. secondly my husband just bought this house but since that i dont have a job the title of this house is only with him and my name is not in there is that fine? i mean please dont get me wrong i might sounds what you dont like but girls like me want a security right.

YOU HOW'S YOUR HUSBAND TREAT YOU DID HE GIVE YOU MONEY? LIKE ALLOWANCE FOR YOUR SELF AND ALSO THE BUDGET FOR THE GROCERIES AND SENDING MONEY TO PHILIPPINES.??? OR YOU NEED TO ASK FOR FIRST? DID HE KNOWS HOW TO TURN YOU UP SMILE OR WHEN SOMETHING WRONG OR SOMETHING MAKE YOU WORRIES WHAT HE GOING TO DO?? HOW ARE YOU AS A WIFE? IS A KIND OF WIFE YOU ARE NOW THAT YOU LIKE OR DREAMING?

thanks for who are you now reading and pay attention for this..

You complain about money etc and you seem to concentrate only on what you want and how you would like things to be. But you don't seem to appreciate that if you asked him, I'm sure there would probably be things that your husband is not absolutely happy about as well and that's how marriage is and should be, a compromise.

You say twice in your post that your husband is not a bad guy but you seem to concentrate on what you see as his failings. I think you should examine your conscience and try to establish whether you married him for the right reasons and if you come to the right conclusion there should only be one overriding reason which should be because you love him. If that is the reason you married him then you should start to count your blessings instead of his failings. If that is not the reason you married him then your unhappiness will never be resolved.

With regard to your husband being the one who is in control of the finances, although I believe it is the opposite in Phils where the wife usually controls the finances, in this country it is more usual for the husband to do this, although more often than not, this would usually be after consultation with the wife and especially with regard to major expenses or purchases.

Iain.

[Piamed]

Hi amiga

I want to focus on where you are now but can't help wondering why you reference how wonderful your life was before you married yet seemingly you agreed to marry as you perceived that it would bring even more joys to you than being single. Perhaps you were ot really ready to be married in retrospect. Nethertheless, as you crave a higher degree of independence, finding a job could help. It's certainly not easy to find one but they are out there so good luck with that.

Every couple is different, perhaps having an allowance will work for you. In our case we have debit cards to the same accounts. I trust my wife totally in the financial decisions that she makes. That is because we have discussed our approach to managing our finances. We use the family motto 'frugal and thrifty'. I think you should perhaps do the same so that your husband is in line with you and can have confidence that you will manage your finances in accordance with whatever level you agree.

I also think that you should perhaps spend more effort counting your blessings that your man is a responsible one that takes good care of you. Consider how he feels and do all you can to meet his happiness needs too.

The name on the property deeds in itself should not concern you if you are both commited to and are secure about staying together. Why are you concerned about this?Have you mentioned this to your hubby and if so what was his response?

All the best!

[ron]

Sometimes money is the root of all evil and can cause many argements especially if you have too much of it. LOL

Ron

[GaryFifer]

Sometimes money is the root of all evil and can cause many argements especially if you have too much of it. LOL

Ron

I must be really really really really good. i got all

[pocahontas]

im a new member here and living now in london with my husband. my husband is not a bad guy. he dont have a bad habits like drinking alcohol, smoking, clubbing,AND sometimes he act like a kid.but hes still the man who stand for hes responsible like house, food, etc., im not alcoholic but i do like drinking sometimes in the pub with friends go disco, shoppings, having fun even in a small way.this is what i am before he met me.(I MIS MY SISTER MY PARTNER IN CRIME) were totally different likes where id just discover when we finally together here in uk. but it doenst mean that hes bad so am i right.

i write this letter for me and for my husband. coz i know we both having a hard time of our relationship well because of my attitude or things that we always argue that mostly its start on me. but you cant blame me, what can i do i have my own idea, opinion, and feelings, sure that i want him to know and that is the start of our discussion. i cant just be quiet and follow him and yes yes yes only, pero napapagod din ako mag complain lalo na wala namang resulta pero di rin naman lahat ha there are also thing that thank god bilang na bilang ngalang.


my husband is not a bad guy but there are so many things we dont agree to each other.i want us to do together things that we both like. but what i like to do mostly he dont like and it really keeps me boring. we sure did lots of things that we had fun but its actuallly all hes idea and when my turn to choose or i intend to choose what i wanna do its just end up for so many reasons mostly. well for the record for now were doing fine. he never shouted me when im upset tayong mga pilipina pa nga ang matapang eh hehe.pero ganon lang naman tayo diba we cant really keep whats inside.well sometimes id just intend to silent.


i find it hard my life here when it comes to financially, emotionally though he buy me things i need but i need to tell him. i mean its like i dont have anymore freedom of money, whatever happened i dont have my own money so i feel so unsecured too. secondly my husband just bought this house but since that i dont have a job the title of this house is only with him and my name is not in there is that fine? i mean please dont get me wrong i might sounds what you dont like but girls like me want a security right.

YOU HOW'S YOUR HUSBAND TREAT YOU DID HE GIVE YOU MONEY? LIKE ALLOWANCE FOR YOUR SELF AND ALSO THE BUDGET FOR THE GROCERIES AND SENDING MONEY TO PHILIPPINES.??? OR YOU NEED TO ASK FOR FIRST? DID HE KNOWS HOW TO TURN YOU UP SMILE OR WHEN SOMETHING WRONG OR SOMETHING MAKE YOU WORRIES WHAT HE GOING TO DO?? HOW ARE YOU AS A WIFE? IS A KIND OF WIFE YOU ARE NOW THAT YOU LIKE OR DREAMING?

thanks for who are you now reading and pay attention for this..

to tell you frankly i was a bit happy when i read your post and its really sounds like mine. my husband is not that fun to be with which is very opposite to me.. the proove of hes silence or lack of like confidence (WHICH IS NOT TRUE) but if you dont know him just like i do you will find him hes a shy type person. so yeah when sometimes theres a situation that we go and eat in restaurant im the one who raise hand and call the waiter/waitress not because hes shy but just because hes just like that waiting that will look to him and most of the time the restaurant that we go is tend the waiter/waitress lack of customer service and that time i have to enter and break the ice by calling them...

ive got so many to tell you. for now let me make this short, our loves us. but what you feel now is i cant blame and give you such a nice adive like whaat the other members give you. but all i can say now is try to do things hard what makes you happy without needing money. me my personality is very happy senstive which i think we have same. so what i do is when hes work im really dancing and my music is really loudddddddddddd and after that when im tired im doing a yoga which is relaxing....try to relax your self and not to worry much in our emotional..believe me I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL...

SC EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE..and oh by the way you can pray for now to our fellow filipino who are victims of disaster typhoon, it helps to ease your broken heart that you feel now... im sure your husband love you so much CHEER UPPPPP

[Ana_may365]

Before we marry our husband, we must have some expectations regarding financial capability of our husband. We must also think that marrying white is NOT like winning lottery. Be thankful he has no bad habits and try to land a job as possible so you can have your own money. As what I have said before, money doesn't grows on trees in this country.

It's only money but it is always the start of arguments so why not keep calm and learn how to ask money from your hubby in a very special way! Konting lambing lalo na bago matulog. Your sweetness, caress and the LOVE to show to him before you ask money.

Don't be bothered about the house, he cannot bring it in heaven!

Cheer UP!

i second the motion sis!

[lizaphil]

im a new member here and living now in london with my husband. my husband is not a bad guy. he dont have a bad habits like drinking alcohol, smoking, clubbing,AND sometimes he act like a kid.but hes still the man who stand for hes responsible like house, food, etc., im not alcoholic but i do like drinking sometimes in the pub with friends go disco, shoppings, having fun even in a small way.this is what i am before he met me.(I MIS MY SISTER MY PARTNER IN CRIME) were totally different likes where id just discover when we finally together here in uk. but it doenst mean that hes bad so am i right.

i write this letter for me and for my husband. coz i know we both having a hard time of our relationship well because of my attitude or things that we always argue that mostly its start on me. but you cant blame me, what can i do i have my own idea, opinion, and feelings, sure that i want him to know and that is the start of our discussion. i cant just be quiet and follow him and yes yes yes only, pero napapagod din ako mag complain lalo na wala namang resulta pero di rin naman lahat ha there are also thing that thank god bilang na bilang ngalang.


my husband is not a bad guy but there are so many things we dont agree to each other.i want us to do together things that we both like. but what i like to do mostly he dont like and it really keeps me boring. we sure did lots of things that we had fun but its actuallly all hes idea and when my turn to choose or i intend to choose what i wanna do its just end up for so many reasons mostly. well for the record for now were doing fine. he never shouted me when im upset tayong mga pilipina pa nga ang matapang eh hehe.pero ganon lang naman tayo diba we cant really keep whats inside.well sometimes id just intend to silent.


i find it hard my life here when it comes to financially, emotionally though he buy me things i need but i need to tell him. i mean its like i dont have anymore freedom of money, whatever happened i dont have my own money so i feel so unsecured too. secondly my husband just bought this house but since that i dont have a job the title of this house is only with him and my name is not in there is that fine? i mean please dont get me wrong i might sounds what you dont like but girls like me want a security right.

YOU HOW'S YOUR HUSBAND TREAT YOU DID HE GIVE YOU MONEY? LIKE ALLOWANCE FOR YOUR SELF AND ALSO THE BUDGET FOR THE GROCERIES AND SENDING MONEY TO PHILIPPINES.??? OR YOU NEED TO ASK FOR FIRST? DID HE KNOWS HOW TO TURN YOU UP SMILE OR WHEN SOMETHING WRONG OR SOMETHING MAKE YOU WORRIES WHAT HE GOING TO DO?? HOW ARE YOU AS A WIFE? IS A KIND OF WIFE YOU ARE NOW THAT YOU LIKE OR DREAMING?

thanks for who are you now reading and pay attention for this..

hi sc,
how long you been here in uk?
why your not go to work?
then you got your own money then?
because we are the same setuation as yours?before when i first arrive here,
i dont got any money, everytime i ask my hubby money to send to my son to the philipines
we got lots of argument he keep moan why i need to give you money,and he just keep on and on and on??? then i try very hard to find get work untill i got work.
then now after past 2years he never moan about money,because i work so hard,and i buy everythings food,needs?all i can suggest sc you need try hard
also to your hubby give it some time?
like some wife who answer with you.
we are pinay matibay ang loob,mahaba pasinsya...you ganna be happy atlast
trust me

[sparky]

might just be me being cynical but as far as i can see the OP hasnt mentioned the "L" word in all her posts relating to her husband..................

perhaps theres the problem

[Tish]

Phew, just took me ages to get to the bottom of this thread

Hi SC,

I hope you're feeling much better lately And not as sad and confused

Tish

[somebody]

From a quick read it sounds like to me you need a purpose to your life, either volunteer work or ( i know its not easy at the moment) to get a Job of some sort.

Even if you earn pocket money you will have your own money to send home or do as you please although dont forget to offer something to the household even if its just a gesture.

Your husband sounds like myself, I work hard dont go crazy and life can be a tad boring. Like you and even my Wife before we married I was happy to go out and about but now we are married. Life has changed, I can remeber when i started secondary school i was anoyed life had changed then the same for college and uni. Once I started work it changed again and then the last massive change was getting married and realise my life is not just my own that another indivudal life is intertwined with mine.
I could not dissapear for the day or waste all my spare money on records or go out friday and find my way home sunday night.

Basically you need to slowly grow used to that way of life or jack it all in if you dont want that and live the life you wish.


Any way take it easy and enjoy the forum :-)

[aposhark]

Hello sadly confuse I'm sorry for how you are feeling right now. Reading your post, you reiterated that your husband is a good man in general....
But you have problems with other issues (allowance, doing together things of your choice and not always his, etc.)
My take on this is to talk to your husband nicely and calmly about things that bothers you or things you hope for and expect from him and from your marriage,
at thesame time, i suggest you also ask him what he wants, what he hopes for and what his expectations are on you and on your marriage....
Remember there's 2 of you in this marriage, its not just about you, its about him too....
open communication and willingness to compromise is always the best way to go....

One more thing, looks to me, from your post, he seems to be a good provider as well, since you can go out on pubs and disco from time to time
and you got a house he needs to pay for as well, and don't worry about the house on his name alone....
Remember you're married, so whatever's his is yours too, lol, it's conjugal...
Personally, its best if you try to appreciate him more for the good qualities he got as a husband....
instead of focusing on the things he lack and his shortcomings and what he doesn't do for you....
He works hard for both of you and sometimes it would be nice to give him some consolation of being appreciated for his efforts....
Men want nothing more than a supportive wife and we ought to bring out the best in our husbands and we have the power to do that as women
I know marriage is give and take, but mostly give.....you have to think more of what you can do for your husband....
trust me, he will reciprocate coz i believe relationships are like mirrors....

And as for being financially independent, maybe it would be good to get a job, that way you get yourself preoccupied
and make something of yourself than just depending on your husband for money.....
Financial dependence can sometimes make us wives so insecure and inferior about ourselves....
And also, there's no such thing as a perfect husband and neither are we perfect wives anyway.....

Marriage is about love and conflict.....as there's no such thing as a perfect marriage nor a perfect relationship,
disagreements can be good once in a while.....as it allows you to understand and know each other more and practice tolerance for each other...
its a chance for both of you to prove your love and live up to the vows you made for each other on your wedding day - for better or for worse...
And its an opportunity to grow together as a couple....so enjoy your marriage - in good times and in bad

You are very wise and always interesting Sophie.
Now if I could always get my wife to talk with me.......
Dom was right about the tampo.........

I feel I have to do it in return to get her to see how bad it feels.
But I get nowhere...........

[bornatbirth]

You are very wise and always interesting Sophie.
Now if I could always get my wife to talk with me.......
Dom was right about the tampo.........

I feel I have to do it in return to get her to see how gad it feels.
But I get nowhere...........

just tell her you will take her shopping,that will shorten the tampo...and when shes in a good mood talk to her why she got in a bad mood?

its good to talk!

i wouldnt bother going silent on her theres only one winner in that race

[RickyR]

Some great advice on her, but don't just think you have to settle for accepting this life. You make the life what it is, and get out there and do as has been suggested a bit of charity work or something.
If it really isn't working between you, and you have taken all the steps to tell your husband how you feel then you do have options, sometimes it needs you to talk to a counsillor or similar, or sometimes when you've tried very very hard you have to make a difficult decision. But you must think carefully about what you want, and how you can achieve that, and what your husband wants.

[aposhark]

just tell her you will take her shopping,that will shorten the tampo...and when shes in a good mood talk to her why she got in a bad mood?

its good to talk!

i wouldnt bother going silent on her theres only one winner in that race

bornatbirth, I ask her when she's happy what do I do when she's in tampo.
She tells me to ignore her in those times.

I cannot win

[bornatbirth]

then you need her to open up and talk....my wife doesnt stay silent for long(sometimes i wish she would)so whatever the problem was usually gets sorted!

[pennybarry]

well he do give me money and sometimes send money in philippines but i have to ask which makes me feel so hard.

I understand you 100% unto this, We filipinas as much as possible, doesn't like to ask money to our hubby. For me it's also hard to do as I live independently after my college years. That's why before I marry my hubby, I ask him if he will give me all his wages, just allowance or I will have my financial independent if I found a job.
Anyway, always think you are more lucky than many wives I've met. You still have no baby so don't give up in haunting a job. Tell him to give you allowance until you got a job.
Goodluck!

[Sophie]

You are very wise and always interesting Sophie.
Now if I could always get my wife to talk with me.......
Dom was right about the tampo.........

I feel I have to do it in return to get her to see how bad it feels.
But I get nowhere...........

bornatbirth, I ask her when she's happy what do I do when she's in tampo.
She tells me to ignore her in those times.

I cannot win

I guess you get the popular "silent treatment" a lot aposhark, lol
Normally, there are 2 ways women show their tampo - they either keep quiet and want to be left alone for a while OR they get confrontational and get in moods, lol....
I guess, either way, men find it hard to deal and handle......i think you guys just get used to it, lol.....

[ca143]

oh dear,u have to forget ur happy go,lucky go life in pinas,u had already new life here that is ur choice,i think all u need to do is find a job.forget ur single life face the present and challenge the future..about d house u dont have to be worried that ur name not included on it coz that is a conjugal proprty as well and wat ms penny said he cannot bring on it into heaven,find a job girl so u can drink beer as many as u can....and send money back home